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I guess I needed this reminder as the draft of it popped up in the notifications from my journal app. I saw the notification this morning and upon curiosity opened it up to read what I had written on September 10, 2018. Today, I needed this encouragement more than ever and perhaps so do you.
Ever had a moment or season in your life where you are sitting on the edge of your seat and perhaps your chair is on the edge of a cliff? Scary isn’t it? However, for some, this can be exciting. Your legs are shaking, palms sweating, and the skin on your forehead is creased up so tight that the sitting and waiting is impossible.
You are sitting on the edge of your seat for news, hopefully good, or just waiting for the green GO signal or even the walking person signal with your face actually on it. Sometimes this waiting can be so intense and you are waiting on the red signal because you are so tired. You feel tempted to grab your bags and tell Jesus that you’re out. You need immediate action or response and you just can’t take it anymore.
I am once again on the edge of my seat and this time I feel like I have been sitting too long. I am on the edge of my seat financially, vocationally, emotionally, physically, and more. Every area of my life I am waiting for God to move. I have heard some of what He is about to do in my life and am trying to hold fast to His Word He has provided as proof. I have even had to face that He just wants to restore me first and foremost. Sometimes we just want God to Santa Claus us and make us and our lives perfect and I am sorry to tell you that life ain’t peaches and cream.
Nonetheless, I have to believe that this too shall pass for storms pass and seasons change. But when you have property taxes soaring, creditors calling, roadblocks in your vocation, issues with your health and family, and no matter how hard you pray, prepare and plan while sitting on the edge of your seat, you feel as though you are going to lose your mind.
However, this waiting season is not in vain. Life is not black and white. There is still a flicker of hope in this heart of anxiousness and despair. Sometimes, you feel as if you are being stripped of everything. Sometimes, you feel like you are falling apart. Sometimes, you feel shame and fear, hopelessness and anger. God can handle all of these feelings. God can keep you as you sit on the edge of your seat on a cliff. Just perhaps, your falling apart is necessary for God to put you back together again His way. Your stripping is necessary for Him to expose you to the stinking thinking you have accumulated. You are perhaps actually in the position to learn about your self and the God who loves you unfailingly. Perhaps, you must endure this season to experience much more healing from God. Maybe you are now seeing clearer and now understand certain things and people you must evict from your life in order to proceed forward. Your challenges just may have increased because you are closer to your breakthrough. And perhaps, you had to come to the end of your self to learn to trust God step by step, day by day.
Surrender. Surrender every area of your life to God. Your failures, fears, plans, old way of thinking, children, job, finances, your creativity, everything. God created this universe; God created us, gave us purpose, potential, talents, creativity, and the ability to create wealth and more. He wants and has the best for us all and it is time we surrender everything to Him to receive life and life to the full that He came to give us. If you are void of peace, strength, joy, provision, ideas, then seek Jesus first. Get to know Him for Him. Know that only He can fulfill you. Bring yourself to His altar of love and sovereignty. So, while you wait, ask God what He wants to reveal to you during this time. Ask Him to give you grace during this season to be able to receive His truth. Allow Him to shatter the spirit of deception in your life and to help you see things from His perspective. Draw closer to God. Learn to abide in His presence. Learn to control your emotions and to take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ Jesus. Ask Him to help you to not shrink back no matter the persecution, to be brave despite the fear, to keep doing good no matter how much weariness seem to be crouching at your door. Ask Him to show you how to be productive while you wait. And to open your eyes and realize that just perhaps you are not on the edge of your seat on a cliff but wrapped up in the loving arms of God.
Stay the course. Don’t flinch; just speak back God’s Word full of trust, authority, and belief to the enemy like our big brother, Jesus, did. James 4:7 says submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. And finally, be still and know that He is God (Psalm 46:10). And appreciate the lessons, strength, and desperation to draw closer to God this season of your life yielded. Hopefully, when this season of waiting comes back around you won’t have the same storms and you will be able to endure because you have a firm foundation in the Lord. Rooted and full of His love and Word.
P.s. dont try the chair balance on a cliff or anywhere for that matter.